fed up with all deeez stupid fucking bitchezzzz, fuck off and be stupid somewhere else!

you bleed just to know you're alive

and i don't want the world to see me, cos i don't think that they'd understand. when everythings made to be broken, i just want you to know who i am

i know i'm unloveable
you don't have to tell me

so tired of trying to be perfect
i just wana get to manchester! create a new identity for myself

it's all coming together now.

you all pushed me away, so fuck that, i aint coming back again

Amy Jade Winehouse

I am devastated. I cry writing this - my hero, idol, inspiration - Amy Winehouse. Amy was sucha beautiful, talented, loving & passionate person. The fact that she gave up & left leaves me with nothing but desolation, and loss of hope for the future. She comforted me; just as Katie Price, Noel Gallagher, Bridget Bardot, Russell Brand also do. But she.. she was different, and she was hurting. The same as me; I heard her say 'the more insecure I get, the bigger my beehive becomes', I totally understand that - I've been there for fucks sake! I don;t think anyone else on this planet would ever say that - yet she did, and it made me feel like I wasn't alone. It scares me that shes gone, because it makes me feel even more alone. The people who aren;t afraid to be different, to shake up society a bit - they all get pushed out in the end. I loved her so so much, and I feel for her family at a time like this - I can;t even comtemplate what they;re going through... but I don';t know them. To be selfishly honest; I fear for myself, and anyone else who feels the same as I. She gave me hope, and yes, I know she was messed up - and its easy to have an impression of someone like that as a bad person. But she was not a criminal. She was not a monster. She was not a malcious person. She was a girl, she was a 27year old girl who loved writing music and performing her songs. She should be not dehumanised. I can say that I have experienced a tiny bit of the dehumanization she went through, when I had rumours going around about me being malicious, evil, criminal. I couldn;t even cope with a fraction of it,
So please, I won;t change your opinion of her, I don;t have any interest in doing that. I just wanted to let you know how much she actually meant to me. And so many other people, she was beautiful. Full of passion. So much to give to the world. And she gave me a helluva lot. Like not to be afraid of being my own person.
I will carry on Amy, and carry on what you started.
She had fucking balls.
Rest In Peace you beautiful girl